音樂心情7

那一夜，我看見你淚眼婆娑的出現在夢裡．．．

場景是中歐普魯士的某處城堡，向晚的落陽將磚牆染成殷紅，護城河迴映堤岸短綬更形蒼涼，灌木叢中時隱時現的點點螢火更添增幾抹寂寥。

你的啼聲首先畫破天際，驚得古城裡底飛蝠紛紛逃逸；當一身槁白棉紗從階梯緩緩而降時，映入眼簾的是你彷若刀痕的滿臉淚跡，紅腫的眼眸遮蔽了過往你特有的絢爛光采。

我站在橋墩這頭，莫明所以的對著你那蒼白身影發怔，某某人則在我身後河畔湛藍車座裡沉睡，想當然耳的，絲毫未聞周圍人事地物的變化。

你忽然抬首，用那種我未曾見識過的幽怨眼神靜靜地凝望著我。我仿若做錯事的小孩，心虛的不敢正視你，只能低頭看著那雙沾滿爛泥的小紅鞋。

終於，你來到我面前，恍惚之間，我聽著你以嗚咽的語氣斷斷續續的訴說著妳和他的愛情故事：攀岩、觀星、賞鳥、夜遊．．．曾經溫熱了兩顆孤獨冷傲的心，奈何長長的歲月之牆終究成為你倆同赴伊甸的阻礙。

然後，我被某種聲響吵醒了，睜眼一瞧，原來窗外開始下雨了。懵懵的腦海裡還殘留著你悲慟的低泣。那哭聲與這雨聲，喚起了我十年前初次聆聽詩人歌手Martyn Bates的記憶。

彼時也像此刻，飄著冷雨。我獨自一個人躲在宿舍裡，聽著"You're The Spell (I Can't Break)"。那是一首怨訴愛情盲目極欲掙脫魔咒卻又膽怯難捨的款款衷曲--

i was born of love

and i've never known

so i was your fool

you knew

you knew

you're the spell

you're the spell

and you spell

i was bewitched

you're the spell

and trust it everytime

how to leave its world behind

for you knew me to be blind

i would fall to your design

how easily i'd hypnotise

that must break

i can't shake

my mistake

by your ardour

i can't break

此際，窗外，依然淒切．．．

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1999晚春